Hey there readers..
I’m not sure if any of you still keep up with my blogs. Its been a longggggg time that I didn’t post anything.
I didn’t go to US to further my study.
Currently single and enjoying every minute of it. This freedom is a bliss!!
&I’m Working; My dream job, in the company i’ve dreamt to work for ever since I’m like twelve?
&Fyi, I just own my dream car!!!
Oh well, Give and take they say; Some things that you lost, some will then be earned or replaced.
Come what may.
Cheers~~
Life has been constantly moving forward. Waking up to sunrise even if I set the alarm clock or not. And, having to sleep even when I am not sleepy but just because I am out of things to do! Yes, This state.. Jobless!!
You know, those few time you have a life altering moment. I just had it again.
Was supposed to go continue my study, I did not.
Was supposed to get on the scholarship, I could not.
Was supposed to start working, I have not.
Things arent really going as planned, but as far as it strecthed… I have been in the air flying to and fro.. Taking my miseries away, little by little.
Well, I don’t too.
I just don’t like feeling neglected or feeling like being ignored. I don’t wanna be the last to know. I love to be your priority, even if you’re busy doing everythings life throws at you, but I am still the number 1 on your list. I want to know what you’re doing, beforehand or afterwards. I don’t want to wonder around, what you are up to and why you aren’t texting me.
Foremost, I don’t want to assume who you are with and is that person the sole reason keeping you busy from communicating with me? I don’t want to think towards that negativity, I need you to help me, push it all aside.
I need reassurance, that you won’t change.
That.. You will keep your promises, do what you said you will, prove your words are real… and that.. you will always whispers me the magic words & kiss me goodnight before I went to bed at night.
In anyway, “Honesty is always the best policy.”
I never had a feeling that I would wanna run back up towards the escalator, not wanting to go forward into the boarding hall. I used to be that happy-go-lucky girl who sways her way through what life gotta takes ahead of her. It used to be easy; moving on, letting go, and anticipations of probably be meeting somebody new.
But this time, it was different!
I bid farewell. Said goodbye, hold my tears from falling, drawing a smile up on my face. And.. That last hugs…. indescribable!
Well, I had those excitement that I’m gonna be reunited with my family and seeing my home country after so long, but these excitements vanishes like a week as soon as I settled down.
My tears rushes like a heavy downpour as soon as the immigration officer stamped on my passport, to enter the boarding gate area. I called him again, not wanting to part from his voice nor his shadow. Looking at his legs, moving frontwards as I told him where I am. I seriously feel like running back towards the escalator, I wanna stay if I have the choice. I broke my cries out loud, I couldn’t hold it, that wonders and doubts of when will I be able to see him again?
But we had too. He still have another 2 years of his Engineering degree. He cried too. I heard his silent cry very loud and with the pain so crystal clear.
Those were our tears of hopes! For our better future! We will do this together!
May Allah blesses us and strengthened our hearts together, for we will once again be in the same place and shall never be apart. Aaaamiin!!
Its been a while now.
Even my turtles are triple of their sizes and much much more bigger! I have to let them go soon, will set them free at this lake not far from my apartment. Hopefully, they will have all the nutrients, proteins, minerals & sunlights they should be getting.
This weird dream last night, was apparently about my turtle changing its shell. I guess too much thinking about them?
It was swimming happily, and weirder is that.. the turtle seems to have two heads sticking together. But then, before it moves out of the shell.. One was dead. The other one sets free, leaving its shell sinking on the aquarium floor.
I wonder why.
My exam’s results are finally out now. Everythings goooooooooooooood. Im thinking to change my major if im taking my Masters soon. Since, mostly my forensic module grades are way better than the others.
Cheers to life ahead!
I hope any of them will approve!!!
The American Dream
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1. Knowing the person I’ve been loyal and love, betrayed me.
2. Seeing my mom/dad cry.
3. No internet connection!
Do you guys realised, after being 20.. your age seems to increase faster? As if someone is constantly pressing that fast forward button. Bye bye 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25.. Oh my~~ What did u do? What did u achieve?
Maturity?
No. I dont think maturity goes with age. but it does with experience. There are people who are 30s but still thinks like 16 too.
I missed being 16. I missed being 18. I missed being 21.
I wish there is really a pause button, for me to reflect back upon things that I did. But this life keeps moving on fast. Forcing me to adapt. Forcing me to keep doing things. Forcing me to keep busy.
Arrgggggh! I wish for a time-out~
A pause.
For me to hug the people I love. For me to kiss them I miss. For me to hang out with friends and do all the crazy stuffs we used to. For me to just listen to the call of nature.
Open your eyes, don’t diss me with your lies
Cause I only wanna be free, free to believe in me
I’m gonna rise, above the cloudy skies
Cause the love in me is for real,
I am what I feel..
So I’ve been told that.. I ain’t got no soul
Everybody’s got a story, they think they all know me
I’ve been put down, dragged down into the ground
But it’s in the darkest low.. that my spirit really glow~
You know.. really truly honestly, I don’t care
If you think you’re gonna rule me out cause I dare
To stand up as a girl and say..
Open your eyes, don’t diss me with your lies
Cause I only wanna be free, free to believe in me
I’m gonna rise, above the cloudy skies
Cause the love in me is for real, I am what I feel
I am what I feel!
Get up, get up, ladies now
Stand up stand up in this crowd
Fed up, fed up.. of him now
You say I’m in the wrong, that here I don’t belong
But of the same blood we bleed, and our hearts pound to one beat
I’ve found my voice, and I have made my choice
You know I’m here to stay, get out of my way
You know, really truly honestly I don’t care
If you think you’re gonna rule me out cause I dare
To stand up as a girl and say~
Open your eyes, don’t diss me with your lies
Cause I only wanna be free, free to believe in me
I’m gonna rise, above the cloudy skies
Cause the love in me is for real, I am what I feel
I am what I feel
Get up, get up ladies now
Stand up stand up in this crowd
Fed up, fed up of him now!!
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